"The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them — words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a tellar but for want of an understanding ear."
-Stephen King, Different Seasons
suddenly she stopped and fell from the edge. she wonders which sensation was best… the nervousness as she walked to the tip of the cliff… the anxious terror she felt just as she lost her footing… the crest of reckless abandon right before she realized she was falling… the weightless surrender of the fall as everything turned into nothing… the blinding sting from the crack of the water as she felt herself burst into oblivion… slowly… sinking… it all falls apart in the end… beautifully… disastrously… delightfully… painfully… sadly… sorrowfully… it all falls apart.
People seem to think that magick is the answer and can solve everything. Sorry, it can’t and it doesn’t. Magick can be used to call in energies to sway certain things a certain way but realize that like with all life situations, YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE.
If you use magick to manipulate [in a toxic way] and/or to harm—the energies will all come full circle. As an enforcer, I see this all the time and am often called in to check the balance. People, especially in this town, don’t seem to understand… if you align yourself with dark, manipulative, self-centered crap you will call that energy into your life. Simple as that.
Learn your lessons while you can and live your life with authenticity, integrity and TRUST that what’s meant to be is what is meant to be.
LIGHT ALWAYS OVERCOMES DARK… I’m DONE with the toxic, dark-based occult bullshit in this town. Most of these “dabblers” don’t know what they’re doing and end up screwing up their own lives (and the lives of others, even) in the end. Handle your shit and step up. Take ownership of what YOU have brought onto yourself, clean up your own mess and put your magick into something fucking constructive and positive. Hurting others, trying to manipulate and control others… you’re only harming yourself in the end.
GET IT TOGETHER… remember, so-called “Easy Street” is only a temporary and often empty road on the journey of life… live life to the fullest and embrace the GIFT of the present NOW moment. Every breath is an opportunity to live fully and to live authentically—think about it.
We ARE Magick—we need nothing outside of ourselves to be truly amazed
I saw myself, see myself
she let out a sound
without a word
the make-pretend and
what are we
we could be
and never will be
but like a ghost
as I saw myself
she realized then
she wasn’t alone
what she sees
with eyes closed
and heart open
and hands reaching
and arms wide
from the inside
21 march 2014
I wonder… if I dissociate myself from karma altogether does that false programmed idea of “karma” clear itself from my experience? I reason that so long as I’m engaged in a human experience energetics will continue to flow—however… if I no longer “buy in” to the karma/ego-trap then I should be liberated from it, right? By all accounts we ARE stepping into the unknown as we Ascend so why would I limit myself to the outdated notion of “karma”? Karma was created and based in a dualistic matrix—if I am liberating myself from “the matrix” am I also not free to choose my Earthly experience? This does not = denial. I think what I’m trying to say is… we make choices. That opens up pathways, etc… I refuse to be imprisoned by any system/structure not of my choosing (let’s face it, there is a system/structure to most everything, even chaos) so… we’re good? (“good” meaning we’re ok with this idea of mine)